much has gone on internally and externally in my life in this last couple months.  many trials and many smiles have come and gone.  they tend to do that in this world.  however i see that all the while there has been an inward calm space just observing and absorbing all the lessons inherent in this chaotic duality.  i conclude that this is the soul; at last emerging from its long sleep due to continuous meditative and introspective efforts that i have had the priviledge to engage in...particularly kriya yoga meditation taught by Paramhansa Yogananda.  His blessings in my life and consciousness are ever more apparent when the world tries to barge in and blind me of the true Reality.  a constant urge to go deeper in meditation and an increasing dispassion towards the mundane things of this world that i used to be so hypnotized by; these are signs to me that he is guiding and gaurding me on this epic journey of divine discovery.  there are times when i feel so close to freedom and then i will suddenly find myself so far away, but the key is to learn to love God unconditionally, regardless of where i feel like i am.  it isn't what i get, what God is giving me.  it is what i give to God that matters.  selflessly and surrenderingly as He has always given to us all, we too must learn to give.  through perseverance, the true magic of the spiritual path is revealed.  struggle ceases in surrender so i will do just that right now and always.

i am striving to really connect with everyone who crosses my path.  to really look at them and feel love for them in my heart.  to send that love through my eyes into theirs.  to radiate joy to them through a smile.  this is what makes everyday situations entertaining to me.